Of course I want to feel 

It's obvious

Everybody wants to

Feel permission

Feel loved

Dare to tear my high walls

and loose my footing

Not being scared while

looking someone right into their eyes

Be embraced

Fall asleep next to someone

But for me, it's harder than that

It's not that I never have had any chance

I've had so many chances to fall in love

But for some reason I avoid it

and find I reason to not

Maybe it's because of my fear to be addicted

Let someone control my mood

How one person in one second

can break my heart

I guess it's my own fault

that I have ended up in this situation

Not letting anyone in

Not daring to

Repeatedly, I throw my chances away

Conscious

Tho it hurts to always be dropped behind

Because when is it my turn to have luck

My turn to feel

Without being scared